HI HOMEDOGS, long time no post, yo. So yaaa recently I have been quite content….. :) :) There are those things I’d rather not think about, but then there are all those billions and billions of little things that would make my day anyday. :) And I want to rejuvenate myself back to that mood so I’m going to concentrate on them…………… newish friends, hello. :) DAYM it feels good having someone to talk to, even just for a while…. to make me smile. HAHAHA rhyming…… always has good timing. ;) ANYWAY STOP BEING GAY LEM HAHAHAHA.

Wellllll today we had a draw in netball, springwood people can get pretty dirty. :s but i was always with nice people, first was this maaaaaassively tall dude, but he was nice, and second half with this cute little small girl. :) so i was practically the only one in the team uninjured LOL.

far out. I don’t want to ruin this post with my teeny weeny thoughts of other stuff. :s but yeah, I guess right now I kinda slightly diminished that factor by talking about happy stuff. i’m gonna keep going. therapy. ;D

OH YEAH i applied for several jobs, none being take away if you don’t count muffin break, cookie man/baskin robbins. hee. :) hopefully i’ll get into something… i don’t want to turn to maccas/subway as my last resort. hmm what else. oh yeah, first peer support session ish/meeting them(?) thang going on tomos, yaaaay!!!!!!!!!

that should be enough happy points to last me a while.

I woke up one day and didn’t realise I hadn’t thought of you in a while. And now that I know I haven’t thought of you in a while, it gets me thinking about how odd this is. That it didn’t feel odd at all that you hadn’t constantly been running around, or lying around - one way or another, still in my head that day. I guess that means I’ll probably completely forget about you in the near future, and in a way I’m both happy, happy that you won’t waste my feelings (thoughts, time, and likewise) anymore, and sad, because now I’d only have memories, nothing more.

It wasn’t til now that I actually understood - not just in theory - that stupid quote, “Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened”. In the end you can’t stop time from happening… sometimes, it’s the only thing that’ll keep us going. So, ciao… you probably won’t be popping up in my head for some time now.

Once you’ve led them there, you can’t expect someone who is totally new to the journey to find their way out of the jungle alive. There’s going to be temptation and the devil will find a way to take you away, to make sure that you’re lost. I’m sorry I haven’t been helping you much, helping you to plant your feet on that ground firmly, so that you can grow in His glory, with roots that dig so deep into the ground that your faith will be strong enough to withstand anything. I’m sorry that I can think of excuses, like that it would be awkward, that the environment we’re in looks at us funny when we talk about this stuff. I’m sorry because even though I know this is the devil working against us, I’m not brave enough to stand up and stomp on it. But from now on I’m going to make sure that you won’t get lost throughout the course of your lifetime…

You know, all the angels rejoiced the moment you decided to change your life. Welcome.

Oo haven’t posted in a while, hello! :) and hello tumblarity at 1 HAHA. Just came from Declare and it was ahsome! Well since I’ve last posted there actually has been some stuff going through my mind….. it’s going to come out not very well integrated with each other topic but oh well.

Today I watched New Moon for the second time, which by the way totally owned Twilight in the first five seconds. SUPER WANNA WATCH AVATAR LOOKS SO GOOD now that I’ve seen the ad in the cinemas for it twice. x) SO SO SO EXCITED HAHA! Missed out on netball grading because I couldn’t get there, or if I took a bus I would get there too late. :/ AND IT IS SO HOT I FEEL LIKE SHOWERING EVERY MINUTE FOR LIFE.

Yus and I went job hunting yesterday around RHTC with Leanne asking around if they were hiring. Made me resume. :) Didn’t print them and hand them out though HAHA so maybe I’ll do that tomorrow after school, or Tuesday, or something. CAN’T WAIT TO GET MONEY and I’m already fantasising what I’ll do with it. :D Though Emily keeps reminding me that it’s hard to get a job - stop putting my hopes down! Oh and WINONA! I hope we get into the same place! Let’s go togetherrrrrrrr! :)

I’ve realised who my real friends are, the ones that will still be there in ages to come, and who still are. Though outwardly it may seem like I “fit in well” or “(well I don’t really want to quote this one online)”, you yourself I consider much more of a friend than them. Most of these people are from my family. You probably don’t realise how much you guys have shaped my life, and how (this might sound emo) lonely I’ve felt at those times when I wasn’t sure if you still had those friend-like qualities, of always being there no matter what and trusting each other with whatever. There was not many other people that I felt as connected to. You guys matter to me, so so so much.

And it makes me sad, knowing that we’ve known each other practically our whole lives and still I can feel lonely, even sitting next to a bunch of you guys. This I’ll keep praying about, for the last ten years that I have been.